If Ever

If there ever was a day
that I didn't think about you
That day would be gray.
If there ever was a night
that I didn't dream about you
That night would be dark.

I think that I would die
If I didn't have you to occupy
my thoughts, my dreams
my every sleeping and waking moment.
I know that I would die
If I didn't have you to remember
and smile for a while
even though you're not mine.

I know I need to move on past
these thoughts that only hold me down
they take me by the heart and lead me
far away
to a place
that doesn't exist...